why i like being drunk

why do i like being drunk? I will tell you why. Its a release from everyday life … and unknown territory that needs to be discovered. As I will atest, although I am drunk … each drunken time will never be exactly the same. Each time is different in its own accord. I feel high … regardless of the fact that I am drunk and on vicodins. Its a state of mind that can not be fooled with. You feel what you feel regardless of who is around you. I feel free to share my thoughts and feelings. I don’t feel constrained by everyday rules and regulation. I am me at my most natural state. You may think that the alcohol is talking … but it is the real me. The me that doesn’t give a fuckin shit about anything or anybody. The me that just cares about me and having a good time. The me that no one can fuck with. I am in my zone. No one can fuck with me right now. I have all power.

I will read this tomorrow and feel sad. Sad because I can not be who I really am with out alcohol. Am I an alcoholic .. I hope not. Alcohol give me the escape from reality that only dream can achieve.

I am lost in this big world. No one can save me.

So I am a drunk. That maybe.


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Chris
Chris

I googled tired of being drunk because I AM tired of being drunk. I went to a show tonight and drank way more than any soon to be 24 year old should. I"m sitting at my computer right now, thinking of ways to sober up, and reflecting on what you wrote in your bloggerino over TWO years ago! I don't know you, but I feel your pain. Hopefully in these last two years, things have turned out for the better. I hope the next few years smile on me like the last few years have on you.

Best o luck,

An extremelyh intoxicated CHris.

jessica
jessica

I am too drunk. Scrolling is nausiating. I am swaying, and I can taste this evenings popcorn, and I on't remember tonight. I feel like I am spinning, anmd I want to stop. I ave to work tomorrow, and for once I don't have to look when I type. I just want ot go to sleep, because it is 3 am, but I jus t can't. I dont want to puke. What are three blue motorcycles, anyeay??? I had one, and two beetlejuices, and a sex on the beach, but I didn't feel like this. I just saw RENT! tonight. It was awesome. I felt like I died and was reborn. Being drunk is cool when you have people to talk to, but when you go homw and are by youraself it just sucks. I just tried to drink water and I spilled i ton my tits, and I have so far made no effort to clean it off my tits or chin. I am a bastard. Thats why I don't believe in god. In deutoronomy it says that if you are a bastard you are not welcome in heaven, so I say Fuck it. Who needs god anyway. Its all a big fuck santa claus story to make us live our lives the right way, and to hold someone else accountable for our actions. I wanna be in the drivers seat. not god. I only get one life, and I will live it by the fullest. I know im drunl, but if there is a god where does he live??? The universe is so big, where is his address??? All the black people were at IHOP tonight. So we went to ocharleys, where we didn't get served, so I got the menus, and the napkins, and the ranch dressing, but I promise you that teh waitresses were there to get our money. Okay my phrase all the black people was wrong. the fire marshall came to the club, and kicked everyone out, so everyone at the club went to ihop. I was not at the club, i was at rent, but anyhoo we werent going to wait two hours for a table, so we went to o charleys, seated ourselves, and waited two hours for a fucking menu, I wound up getting my goddamn self. So what the fuck?? Oh hell I don't know what I;m saying, I just typing so I can sobewr up a little bit. I'm gonna have a massive headache in the morning. I am watching Iron Chef. And for some reason I understand whatever language he is speaking. Japanese, or chiniese or something. I just understand. I like that on stupid videos dot com. Its called iraq news report or something. they have an iraqie that is speaking perfect english, but htey still put subtitles whe he is speaking. I'm soorry i would speel check, but i can't focus properly. I can but I am lazy i guess. way too lazy. I need to be less lazy, but some people need to be less rich or fat, or less stupid. Like I have room to talk right? Oh who gives a fuck. Am I a bastardly comment. I guess so, because I am a bastard. But who gives a fuck right. I know I don't. I only want to know my real dad if he is rich, and feels the same amount of guilt as his wallet is fat. So if not, fuck him. Thats my motto, fuck it. I think that is my generations motto, fuck it. It just rolls so easily, and comes so freely. Hey! that rhymed, Dr. Suess in the House! I am surprised I actually got the exclamation point on that the first try. I think I am just yping until I run out of space. I don't want to sleep. My belly hurts. Blue Motorcycles,and popcorn and coke a cola don;t mix. just for future reference. eww i just tasted butterey stomach acid. eggplant is the seceret food on iron chef. i miss home videos on comedy central. i would pay 50 for a collection of those shows. but hell, i would pay 10$ extra to be allowed to smoke in the movie theatre. i am tired, but i cant sleep, i'm too hot. i m dead sexy! not really. but who gives a fuck right. if your still reading i'm not stupid just drunk. sickly drink. i'm in the miserable realm. i am afraid of passing out in this chair, and falling in the floor. So bye now hopefully o can talk my stomach into not pucking tonight. if not I'll see ya in the sewer. haha

steve
steve

Cola will not deminish the flavor of a fine Bourbon or Kentucky Rye Whiskey at all; though most "experts"/booze snobs will disagree/chide me for saying that. I think it's important to drink something that's different, tastes yummy and is affordably distinguished. I've been told by many that Caffeine-free Pepsi and a shot of Van Winkle's 13 year old rye on the rocks is the best summer patio drink there is. I sell case upon case of Van Winkle's because it goes with everything and is value for dollar the best that there is. Now, when are we having the bastardly party!?!?!?

steve
steve

MiSs, the perfect drink for you is probabaly a tropical fruit smoothy(a bit like Jamba Juice's 'MANGO MANGO') but with a single shot of Krupnikas. Imagine a fruityHurricane without the cheap hangover. You're Thai, and love all things tropical, lush and rain foresty, that's why I say so. Krupnikas is a Lithuanian spirit made with honey and rye; a "honey vodka" if you will; the stuff is viscous, almost like Aunt Jemina Pancake Syrup. Hopefully one day we'll have a moejackson.com party and I'll bring a bottle; I've never seen the stuff in California, but I haven't been in any good CA liquor stores.

miSs
miSs

Steve - I appreciate the fact that you would like to see me sip something unique. Quite frankly I would too. The Grey Goose and Crans are getting boring but they are soooo delicious. I am willing to try this Bourbon or Whiskey but I have to admit that the "hard core" spirits make me gag. Do I have to drink it by it self or can I add coke? I'm sure the coke ruins the flavor huh? I once drank Johnny Walker on ice with my family during a camping trip and pretty much barfed on spot. Yeah ... I'm weak. Perhaps you can suggest something more tasty for me but not filled with some terrible flavored liqour? I can tell by your posts you are a well travelled fella. I am sure there is some drink out there you can think of that would be perfect for me. OR at least describe to me what the Bourbon or Whiskey tastes like.

steve
steve

MiSs, next time try some Woodford Reserve Bourbon from my website www.internetwines.com/pa46784.html or "slum it" with a fine bottle of Van Winke Family Reserve 13 year old rye whiskey www.internetwines.com/pa56374.html

I'd like yo see you sip a unique and distintive beverage more befitting your fiesty, yet sweet personality.

marie
marie

SAD SO SAD THAT ONE NEEDS ALCOHOL, TO FEEL LIKE SOMEONE. TRY A HOT BATH OR MARIJUANA TO FEEL MORE RELAXED AND OPEN CHICA!! AT LEAST YOU WONT KILL YOUR LIVER

Jackson
Jackson

Vicodin and jagerbombs are one hell of a combination...

Moe
Moe

Dude, I hear you loud & clear!

If we're all ever up there @ the same time, I'll drive the 1.5hrs to hook it up w/ da wicky, no worries!

This comment will serve as a One Free Wiki Pass for you, punk.

miSs
miSs

Dude ... I barely remember writing that. Thats what happens when you are drunk and in front of a computer. Actually about 10 minutes after that I fell into a deep depression and starting crying my eyes out for no apparent reason. Ahhh ... life as a girl. Its great I tell you. I'm surprised that there aren't more typos ... I was really fuckin drunk.

Its mostly Grey Goose and Vodkas ... although I am headed up to Davis this weekend ... perhaps I shall have a Wiki just for the old gang for good times sake? Of course it will never be the same without you Fas. No one will be pressuring me and shit talkin me while I drink it. "Oh my god ... do I need to get you a nipple for that Wiki ..." Sigh.

Moe
Moe

What drink keeps you company these days now that the Wicky-Wacky-Woo is a couple hrs away?

Moe
Moe

that's absolutely beautiful! God, we must all hook up again!

drunk and on vicodins - hilarious, man! jackson's very experienced in this area!