why do i like being drunk? I will tell you why. Its a release from everyday life … and unknown territory that needs to be discovered. As I will atest, although I am drunk … each drunken time will never be exactly the same. Each time is different in its own accord. I feel high … regardless of the fact that I am drunk and on vicodins. Its a state of mind that can not be fooled with. You feel what you feel regardless of who is around you. I feel free to share my thoughts and feelings. I don’t feel constrained by everyday rules and regulation. I am me at my most natural state. You may think that the alcohol is talking … but it is the real me. The me that doesn’t give a fuckin shit about anything or anybody. The me that just cares about me and having a good time. The me that no one can fuck with. I am in my zone. No one can fuck with me right now. I have all power.
I will read this tomorrow and feel sad. Sad because I can not be who I really am with out alcohol. Am I an alcoholic .. I hope not. Alcohol give me the escape from reality that only dream can achieve.
I am lost in this big world. No one can save me.
So I am a drunk. That maybe.